A New Normal

Our new neighbor’s mail is on the counter… dad’s glasses are lost… the milk was put in the freezer… and the ice cream is under the sink. It takes all of us to help set things right. This is life with my parents in the same house as us! We are finally moved in. Praise God!

My mom apparently hit her head. “Hard on a dresser,” she casually says over breakfast. She refuses to see a doctor or go to the hospital, so I’m watching her closely -all day. I can’t see much change, nothing seems out of the ordinary. She’s generally out-of-sorts with me for moving her.

I shudder to think of all that went on when I was not with them. Some things we learned from their neighbors. A few were kind and understanding, others frustrated and disgruntled. I can see now, why. My dad collected garbage cans in his back yard, sometimes mail and other things he just found interesting in an open garages! He enjoyed piling sticks at the top of one neighbor’s driveway… like a “beaver dam.”

Now, mom often rings the bell for me to come and tells something like, “I don’t like these crackers” or “the sheets can be changed,” (not because they are dirty). My dad says all day long, “what should I be doing?” and “can you fix the tv?” or “why is she so upset?” -meaning my mom.

I sat at my sewing table, finishing up some quilts for a needed break. Out of the window I saw them walking down to the small lake behind this house. Hand in hand, safely in our sights. I jumped up and ran to the family room. “Quick kids, come look – This is why we are doing all this- this is why we moved them here.”

I know it’s not easy for anyone. I know we have a lot to learn. I want the kids to see how important it is to me to have my parents safe – to help them when needed, yet allow them some freedom. It’s definitely a new normal for us all.

God be our Strength and our Guide.

ForGlorySake!Anna

walk to the lake
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Diet For The Tongue

James – What a book to study! It gets me every time with all the control your tongue-talk. I tell my 2 chatty daughters, “Your mouth is your biggest asset and your greatest downfall.” I know because it’s mine.

Mouths full of words, have this wonderful way of making friends and encouraging folks… but also getting in the middle of big messes. Like a size 9 stuck in my teeth! I remember listening to Ann Graham Lotz (Billy Graham’s daughter) speak on Sins Christian women sometimes overlook. She named: gossip, envy, jealousy, haughtiness, meanness, preferring one over another, seeing a need and passing by, exaggerating, hypocrisy, self-centered anger, ingratitude…worry. Ugh.

How does this junk come out of a believer? I’ve been thinking more and more about my words and how they effect others. How did those attitudes get in there to begin with? I’m pretty thoughtful, when it comes to what I eat, but what about what I gobble up with my mind? What I watch and what I listen to? I desperately need a well of good to draw from when I’m tired and stretched in every way.

Number one help is a heaping dose of Bible reading and listening to scripture. Then praise music and talking with Jesus. Beyond that, scrutiny of all other ingredients going in me… Do they pass the Philippians 4:8 test?

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Phil. 4:8

These truths will fill me up as I continue to pack-up mode 2 houses and take care of my parents. We are all pretty wiped out and sometimes short on gracious words. Ahh, it takes so much effort to guard the tongue!  Well worth the effort, I’ll keep trying.

ForGlorySake! -Anna

Set a guard over my mouth, LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips. Psalm 141:3
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Privileged

I read an article recently about the privileged people of America (students in particular studying at Ivy League colleges) and it got me thinking. Looking through all of my mother and father’s memorabilia and family photos, I saw more than a story, I saw a way made for me to be alive today.

My ancestors and my husband’s ancestors ( your ancestors) survived countless illnesses and accidents. They worked hard to prepare a future for their families. Farming, truck driving, wood carving, public speaking, and selling well-water are just some of the livelihoods in our family tree. Yet it was God who kept them all alive and gave them off-spring that survived.

These faded black and white photos I discovered, show hardworking people, immigrants from one country or another. Their faces sometimes look stern. They survived disasters like famine and war and lost so many of their children along the way. Yet they kept on going and here we are. By God’s divine hand, He preserved these people – my family. It’s rather amazing when you stop to think about it.

I am privileged. You are privileged. God made a way for each of us to be alive. Of all the treasures I’ve inherited from those of yesterday (stories, traits, looks etc…), I consider the knowledge of God to be my greatest. He has a plan for you and me – in this place and at this time.

Since He went to such great links to preserve me, I want to daily thank Him- and enjoy this incredible privilege of life.
 
ForGlorySake! – Anna

My relative in 1650
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Together-finally

24/7! That’s what it’s been since returning from the hospital and picking up a moving truck. David’s blockage cleared in a week without need of any surgery. Praise God! There is no way to tell what caused it, other than too many hours sitting in a car. He has given no restrictions so, we worked nonstop to pack up our home, clean out my parent’s home (keeping only what they wanted), and carefully arrange everything in one house. Whew!!!

It was dark by the time we finally arrived to make the actual transport of my parents. It had taken us all day to move their bedroom furniture and set it up. they would not be willing to leave. My sister drove them, while we gathered the last few personal items. Everyone was tired and ready for bed.

We finally arrived and they saw their new digs for the 1st time… tears flowed. There had been a little sadness earlier when longtime neighbors said goodbye, yet driving away in the dark had been easy. It was not our plan to run so late… God arranged even in this. Mercy.

All this to tell you: We are in! They are in! God has provided  for what He has called us to do. I’m learning daily, growing hourly. There is no doubt this was not a moment too soon. Adjustment takes time – something we keep repeating to each other. However, this feels right. we are exhausted, but we are both directed and covered. There’s a lot of care, cleaning and driving to do, but we are together sharing the load. Grace.

Children’s children are a crown to the aged, and parents are the pride of their children. Proverbs 17:6 NIV

ForGlorySake!Anna

The house of wicked will be destroyed, but the tents of the righteous will continue to expand. Proverbs 14:11

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Blessed

I am being blessed in this latest trial of my husband’s illness and hospital stay. Can you imagine anyone saying that? Or actually meaning it? But I am quite serious- I really am being blessed!

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4

James says to count it all joy in the midst of trials, and I am. Back in the colon cancer days of 2010, I had a long time to think about these verses. I realized, the struggles and strains taught me something special. God really is faithful to His word! He is working and doing even when I can’t see. Now I know.

Here’s my blessed list so far:

  • To see again God’s faithfulness 1st hand
  • To exercise trust
  • To lean-in and be held
  • To ask for help and humbly accept it 
  • To graciously receive/allow others to serve
  • To be at peace, spread hope and joy 
  • To focus and relax 
  • To look for good in the midst (like a game)
  • To seek to be a blessing
  • To take one moment at a time
  • To discipline my mind and heart
  • To force myself to wait on God
  • To find treasure

For You are God and there is no other. Isaiah 45:22

ForGlorySake! -Anna
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One moment at a time
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Stop Everything!

God’s timing is curious. There’s no figuring it out in the moment, but sometimes, looking back the fuzziness clears. I’m in the fuzzy-part right now.

My husband, David, his bro-in-law, one of our sons and a cousin all went on a whirlwind spring-break trip to see colleges. Something planned months ago, before the move was even considered. Driving back from Texas, about mid-way through Mississippi, David complained of cramping in his lower abdomen… 

The pain leapt from a “2 to a 10” in about an hour, definitely not something you want to hear from the colon cancer survivor! Soon everyone panicked. His surgeon, via cell phone, beckoned them ASAP back to Birmingham. Speedily they made their way to St. Vincent’s Hospital.

Word got to me and I headed over to meet them there. David is currently admitted and in a room. Pain meds are flowing. His Dr. found a blockage in the small intestine. No mass however. They will give him 3 days to pass it naturally, before talking surgery. In the meantime, no food, no water, just ice chips.

Why now?  We were so close. But really, is it ever a good time to  stop everything and go to the hospital? We have been forced to rest – to sit and wait. My parents are covered ( care-wise) until we get back on track. I sure don’t understand, but I know God sees, He knows, and He’s here with us, as always.

I will choose to trust Him… 

ForGlorySake!– Anna

View from our room
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Keys

Our first moving day is finally here! Keys to the new house are in hand and we can begin this crazy adventure. It feels like it’s been a long process, trying to decide when and how to move my parents.

Many changes have occurred since 2009. We’ve weathered quite a few storms and all throughout our own saga, my parent’s health was declining. It’s like a game of catch-up, which I’m told is typical of dementia. You never quite know where you stand with this disease. Doctors can only tell which kind of dementia it is by how it progresses. It’s just wait and see.

As fast as my father is regressing, they now think he has Alzheimer’s or Parkinson’s… or both. Medications have not slowed his progression. His muscles are tightening in his back and hamstrings. My mother’s seems more stable. Although she is more unsteady on her feet, an affect of hydrocephalus.

This past winter, being snowed in with my parents, we realized they could not be left by themselves any longer. This move can not happen fast enough. We are in full swing for the final push to get everything set up. God, the Giver of every good thing, an ever present help in time of trouble will help us.

For Glory Sake!Anna

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Hope For Tomorrow

Moving! I swing from excited anticipation, to mild panic, to just being plain overwhelmed. Boxes are piling up at 2 houses and still, there’s more to do. Friends stop by and see the progress… I see the mess. Can’t vacuum, can’t dust, and there’s always another file to go through.

I have come to realize, that my dad was having dementia issues since 2010. Going through his office files has been shocking and distressing. It’s now past the time when he can answer my questions. I wish we had gotten involved sooner. 20/20 hind-sight….

This past week also brought a series of mechanical breakdowns- we had 2 older cars die. What are the odds? And I had to have a root canal. Fun. Wouldn’t it be nice if life slowed down so we could focus on just one thing at a time? Yet it seems everything keeps coming with no thought to my deadlines. 

It’s a comfort to know God is still on The Thrown. He does not sleep, and He even with all His other concerns, He remembers me. I can hardly grasp that my days were written in His book, and He has good plans for me to walk in. Strength for today and a promise to use all of this is there too. Completeness through perseverance is assured.

Only God can do that. Only He would. Whatever comes, I am not alone. There’s Joy and Peace and Hope for tomorrow!

For GlorySake! -Anna

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Moving

Sorting continues… throw out… give away… drop off… box up! Day in, day out my mind is running. I’m constantly organizing and evaluating, going through items in my head. It’s hard to turn off. I have come to know for certain –we all keep too much stuff!

By the time our relocation occurs I hope to have reduced both households by half… my parents probably more. It was difficult for me to let go of things at first, but seeing all my parents have accumulated over 57 years encouraged me to lighten our load.

My break-through came when I let go of 13 years of homeschool materials. It was like someone opened a floodgate. I don’t regret it -I actually enjoyed it. From there I filled up our suburban front to back with extras of anything. I just keep asking myself – when was the last time we used this?

Giving it away: to a recovery program, a women’s shelter, a animal shelter has become fun! They are always so grateful. This helped me to start pulling similar items out of closets and onto the floor, in piles, asking the kids to pick out their favorites. This then started them letting go as well.

How does it happen, this accumulation of stuff and more stuff? From what I can tell… bit by bit, over holiday, birthdays, constant purchasing. I’m on overload right now, but I hope I will stay sensitive once this is all past.

Feeling a little lighter –

ForGlorySake! -Anna

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God has Provided

  “Yahweh-Yireh” – the phrase comes from Genesis when God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son. Abraham had faithfully waited for this heir, now God was testing his obedience. Was he willing? Amazingly He was. The test over, a substitution was given.

“Abraham named the place Yahweh-Yireh (meaning- the LORD will provide). To this day, people still use that name as a proverb: ‘On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided.'” Gen 22:14

I have been praying for provision in regard to my parent’s care. “God, I need them closer.” His answer had been clear: if you are obedient, on this mountain that I’ve called you to, I will provide… From down on my knees – to up on a step stool. I wrote the phrase above the door.

I believed it would come, but for months I’ve looked at those big loopy words as I leave home and drive south. “When Father?”  This crazy schedule only gets crazier and the hours only grow longer. My mom has fired every outside help I’ve hired and she will not consider moving.

Then in the space of one week she had 3 falls, resulting in 4 broken ribs! Life changed fast. My hours extended and God changed her heart. David was presented with a house where all of us can live together. The provision has come! Perfect timing and a much better plan than I imagined.

Our family needs prayers as we clean out, organize and mesh 2 households into one (think Waltons). Move in is scheduled for April 1.

ForGlorySake! -Anna

snowed-in for 48 hours!
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