29 years ago I got pregnant for the 1st time. David and I were so excited! We had waited 5 years to try for a baby. It seemed like forever. His goal was to 1st pay off all student loans from college and law school. We scrimped and saved and finally it was time. Then 13 weeks into our new adventure, I miscarried. It was devestating.
Before long, I was pregnant again – only a little wiser and more seasoned from grief. I had had time to think about this procreating business. With a heart still-bruised, I got on my knees and did exactly what I did with the prospect of marriage – I prayed.
“LORD, You made this child, it belongs to You. And since I belong to You too, I’m asking for one thing. Not necessarily a healthy child or a perfect child, but a soul for Your Kingdom. I want to be an instrument of righteousness (Romans 6:13) so nothing for the enemy! Take every pregnancy if You must, but only give us children for Your Glory.” I added, “And please protect my heart, because I can’t live in constant fear and worry. We want what You want, they are all Your creations. Just prepare me, because that miscarriage was rough.“
Of course I didn’t hear anything afterwards, but I knew God heard me. I felt sure He agreed with my heart on the matter, so I took that as a promise. I got pregnant 8 times and birthed 5 healthy babies… ending up with 6 God-given children. He softened every blow along the way giving us total peace that He was in control each time. He heard, He saw, and He sent the children He wanted us to love and teach to love Him.
Know- “…And you shall know [with an understanding from personal experience] that I AM the LORD; For they shall not be put to shame who wait and Hope expectantly for Me.” Isaiah 49:23 amp
Labor in prayer- “Oh, my dear children! I feel as if I’m going through labor pains for you again, and they will continue until Christ is fully developed in your lives.” Galations 4:19 nlt
Hope- “…but hope that is seen is not Hope; for who hopes for what he already sees?” Romans 8:24 nasb.
Be certain- “And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue His work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.“ Philippians 1:6 nlt
ForGlorySake! – Anna
