It lurks around the corner, sneaking up and tripping me when I least expect it. Pride the base of all sin, is usually easier to see in someone else, even while it’s staring me in the mirror.
The other day I was praying for one of our kids. Feeling distressed, I decided to start a fast. I needed God to move! I was begging for some healing, protection, direction, and wisdom – all great stuff. My fasting finished up but there was no revelation or change… of any kind. I was so bummed.
The next morning I woke to the thought that maybe God wanted to deal with me more than my child! Could my pride be the problem? It dawned on me that realized I wanted change to come as much for me as for them… maybe even more. This was interfering with what God wanted to do in shaking up a life for His glory.
I thought back 5 years, remembering the struggle with our son’s addiction and recovery. I wanted God to fix him fast. I just wanted things to be normal. It took time for me to understand the necessity of the long road to emotional and spiritual healing.
Now, God was encouraging me once again to let it go -into His hands, for His timing and in His way. I thought I’d dealt with my way over His, years back! Yet, here I was in a new situation learning again, “HE IS GOD AND THERE IS NO OTHER.” In other words, “Get off the throne!” -Yes, this is the only way.
Thank You, LORD for dealing with me while You deal with my kids. You never waste anything. Keep shaking and building us in Your great wisdom. I’m trusting You.
ForGlorySake!- Anna
