Tag Archives: waiting

The Squirming Place

The squirming place lies between prayers sent, and answers that come. It’s when I’ve called out and even surrendered my will, but there’s silence. I can feel the anxiety and suffering, yet relief is only hoped for. Why does God … Continue reading

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A word I don’t like.

Cancer. Yuck. I heard it growing up regarding my grandfather. I was about 9. Not long after, I heard it again: my uncle, my grandmother, my two older sisters. It frightened me. The biggest shock came in 2010 when my … Continue reading

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End of me, best place to be!

Today I am just at the end of me. I don’t have any more bright ideas, and I don’t have much energy to care. I don’t think I can possibly push through, I don’t even feel like I can cry. … Continue reading

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Afraid? Fear not.

Some 300 times in scripture God says “fear not.” In other words, “have peace, you can trust Me!” Angels appearing, crisis happening, things that clearly cause fear… and God says, “don’t, stop.” I have been in scary situations, such as … Continue reading

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Coming home

After 2 “seasons” and a summer, I moved home. At 19 my father had lovingly told me, “you have 5 years to find a life-support system.” 😂 He did not hold much hope for making money in ballet… especially in … Continue reading

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Be still

I took a nice long walk this morning, talking to God. Thankful for blessings, amazed over answers to prayer and frustrated that some issues continue… after years. I thought of the role of the prodigal’s father- watching, waiting. I think … Continue reading

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I Give Up!

For the new year – I give up My will -for His My need to know why -for just letting go. My want list -for His My timetable -for His My “way it will all play out” -for His I … Continue reading

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Solve It and Move On

I love solutions. Answers to questions. Quests that have an end. I don’t love continual research without results. Seeking and seeking that causes more questions. …Waiting to move on. Yet God, leaves me in -the quest for knowledge and answers … Continue reading

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and when you don't see change…

Free will means life has choices. Choices mean consequences. And consequences are hard to watch. Especially when someone’s bad decisions affect you. The whole process can be heart-wrenching from the outside. It’s always easier to see another’s mis-steps and how … Continue reading

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Persistence 

We have this bird… that’s rather annoying. He’s been tapping on an outside window now for a WEEK. He shows up at daybreak and begins his daily vigil of jumping up and pecking the den glass with feet splayed. It … Continue reading

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