My Secret Place

I used to fear this whole sickness thing so much. Hospitals, doctors, tests and unknown diagnosis. Now I have proof, God always has the final say and nothing can stop His purposes. I used to fear death, but I’ve seen it come to a saint (or 2) and it wasn’t pretty, but it was a kindness. 
I used to fear my children rebelling against us and God, and stubbornly determining to do life their own way. Yet I’ve watched God hound after them and protect them -through prayers pleaded, and woo them back into His loving arms… wiser, stronger, whole-hearted followers. 
These have not been easy things or painless lessons, but treasures I value dearly. To see God BIGGER… to witness His power and strength offered to me “in the midst” has been so much greater than any fear I ever experienced. 
Sickness, this round- seems unfair. My husband has already had enough. We’ve already endured our share. Then I’m reminded God is the Potter and we are the clay. He uses me differently than He uses David… each of our children, our family, our friends. We all have the honor of serving Him. But the clay can not complain as to its use. 
His ways are higher. His purposes are greater. He is merciful. He is ever-faithful. Our loving Father knows every hair, every thought, and has made every cell. I am safe in the shadow of His wing. He is my Secret Place from fear. 
Cast Crowns: “So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away. You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held. Your worlds not falling apart, its falling into place. I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held.”
ForGlorySake! –Anna 


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