Today is a day we have both dreaded and waited for. After the neurologist received images and readings Monday, he ordered more scans and changed our appointment for a week. Today those particular tests requested will be run today. It seems like it’s taken forever. Only a week, but to a college student, days equal grades, grades mean GPA, GPA stands for staying in school… graduation… future job. This weekend was an emotional rollercoaster of “what ifs.”
We don’t know anything more. We are just frustrated and speculating. We do understand these views of our daughter’s brain are critical. We’ve been forewarned they are complicated and may take a week to review. Our appointment to hear results is NEXT Tuesday. Sigh. I hope they will know something. Meanwhile, many questions swirl. University of Georgia is advising a “medical emergency withdrawal.” Sarah would rather have her fingernails extracted. It’s hard to watch her grapple with all of this – after she’s worked so hard.
Her medicine makes her sleepy, curbing the dizziness and nausea and for that I am thankful. Hopefully she will sleep through the long test today. Hopefully someone will see something helpful and get the ball rolling. Hopefully there will be clear answers as to her vision loss. Maybe some ideas to correct? Hope is all we have.
My Hope is found in God and His faithfulness. As always, He sees what I don’t. He has an end goal in mind. I know without a doubt that He is working behind the scenes. He is answering my prayers (always) for my children to follow hard after Him. He cares 1st and foremost for their hearts… and I’m more than ok with that!
Let Your will be done, LORD. We trust You with all the -what ifs.