Yesterday I had a bit of a meltdown. Somewhere between the creative staging of each room of our house by a real estate photographer (which involved moving ALL personal items/knick-knacks off shelving), and the thought of keeping this home that we live in – in said manner… I felt overwhelmed.
As soon as they left, I was overcome with a dark cloud. So much stuff to move again! I’ve always loved our big family, but all the things that accumulate – not so much. I used to stress over how long to keep bags of baby items, hand-me-down clothes, shoes, toys… and then where would new Christmas presents and birthday presents go? It seemed like a constant juggling of things. Secretly I cleaned out, gave away and reorganized.
15 years in one home made moving a monstrous job. I discovered great joy in finally giving and giving away. Now with my parents gone, we have all of their items to deal with too. I’m back at that same spot – overwhelmed, only hoping this time to give away to family. I ran to my closet and prayed, quieting my mind. Oh LORD, I’m so overwhelmed, help. I waited for direction.
I told myself,
“What is your problem? Didn’t you just do this 2 years ago? Didn’t you glean and purge and finally find peace? Aren’t these the things you decided were your treasures to keep? Don’t you know God will help get rid of the rest? You can either be burdened by it all again or thankful for each memory and grateful you have reminders. Things are temporary… You can’t take them with you!“
Just like that, a change of heart. I asked God for forgiveness for my grumpy, silliness, and immediately started thanking Him for a new outlook. I popped up and went to a shelf still holding photo books, shells from beach vacations and pottery projects the kids had made. I saw with new eyes treasures of love we’ve shared as gifts.
It’s ok, Your grace is here. Your gentleness toward me was what I needed. I love that You care and hear and answer when I call. Truly, You even direct my thoughts.
Bit by bit this will all work out and we will happily settle into another home with our stuff of life.