I have been praying daily for a harvest from all of the seeds sown at Insight. Our son has boldly shared his beliefs and his faith, sometimes receiving a good bit of mocking. Purposeful with his time and efforts, he never seems to hesitant saying he’s a follower of Jesus -even in a huge meeting. It’s inspiring.
Different kids with the program come through here all week. Older and younger, Ben likes to mix it up. Of course there are a few repeats, some we’ve gotten to know pretty well. There are those who immediately catch my heart, others grow on me. One is open for conversation, another is not. A new guy shows up and avoids my hug. Ben tells me not to worry, he pretty much avoids all parents. Yet having stayed several times… today, he stops to talk.
One that’s here a lot, sat with me as I was writing out my Biblestudy notes. He feels like one of my own children. I talk with him about whatever I’m studying.. Today it’s free-will and the foolish choices Christians make. I tell him it frustrates me that when a person decides to follow Christ, God doesn’t just take away the possibility of straying. I want Him to tie us up close to Himself so we won’t even think of doing any unpleasing thing again. He slowly nods.
I can usually can count on honest feedback from this kiddo. Nothing came. I asked him, “When did you know that God loved you individually; cared about your feelings and had a specific plan for your life? Was it before the long dark road of drugs and recovery?” He says, “Well, I was raised in church and I went to Sunday school, but it scared me mostly… I didn’t understand it.”
I tried again, “Well, then when did you realize God was for you personally? That He made you just the way you are and called you to Himself?” He looked at me with crystal clear eyes, “…It wasn’t until I started coming here and hanging around your family.”
I could hardly speak -right here, right under my nose it had been happening. God had answered my prayers and I didn’t realize. We are living in it. Of course He’s moving, He never wastes anything.
ForGlorySake! – Anna