Thanksgiving was a milestone this year. I hardly made it an hour without tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. God has amazed me with all His faithfulness. My “Jesus Calling” devotional shows three years of comments on each day: 2010-2012. Emotionally stressed, notes of desperation circle the pages. Just trying to survive, I ask God to rescue us from issues now long past.
Oh, He is good. He never left me, although a lot of moments I felt alone. When I couldn’t see Him doing anything He was there, always there, working behind the scenes. He promised to hear my every prayer, and I know He did because I see the answers in such personal ways.
Shocking as it sounds, I’m actually thankful for those trials. Without each one I would not know Him like I do. I wouldn’t have the proof that He did all this. My Sustainer and constant Hope. God proved Himself to me and I have a record of it. It’s almost surreal that I lived through the things recorded.
God, never relented in fighting for my family. Why it all happened? I don’t know. But I believe He always had a plan and He always had a way through. He mercifully saved us. Step by step… bit by bit, only revealing as much as I could take in at the moment. And it was a lot to take in! He was there and that’s the point. My being completely overwhelmed caused me to turn more fully to Him for help.
The waiting, the praying, the longing, the confusion all directed me to Him for hope- real Hope. He has done MORE than I could’ve imagined. When I look around at my family this year, I feel utterly rich. Rich to know His Grace, His Mercy, His love. This amazing God of the Universe cares for me. How do I know? I can see how far we’ve come.