When I became a Believer at 11, I wanted to do something big and significant for God… maybe become a missionary! I hoped He’d send someone to tell me what it would do. I waited, but no one came. Then I heard that God would use my talents. I was a ballet dancer, so I thought that must be it. I’ll be a star and tell the world about Jesus. Things didn’t work out quite that way.
At almost 19, living in a small studio apartment in San Francisco, I began to wonder if my ministry would EVER start. I assumed I just wasn’t good enough yet. Class after class, performance after performance… I was not becoming anything, but sore and underpaid. After a year of this, I got on my knees with a friend from home and we lifted our voices together, asking God if surely there wasn’t something more out there for ballet-trained Christians. We dreamed of how cool it would be to dance for the LORD!
That summer I left SFB for The Atlanta Ballet and free room & board with Mom and Dad. Where was God in all this? I struggled with being the freaky “Christian girl,” who didn’t date, didn’t smoke, didn’t drink and was always reading her Bible. I was DESPERATE for answers. They finally came in May, when I heard about a traveling Christian ballet company in Jackson, Mississippi. I went for an audition, loved every step and came back to cancel my contract.
Traveling across the United States, presenting the Gospel through ballet, I learned that ALL of my life was a “ministry.” As a child, it had been my new found joy in Jesus. As a teenager, a hunger to know His Word. As a young adult, a strong conviction and foolhardy love for street people. Even looking a little freaky as I searched for God’s will… had been a witness to some.
Revelation! It was not a job that made me significant for God, it was a heart to live for Him. Jesus commanded us to love and by that love show we are His. No need to wait, we’re doing it now, by being who God created us to be: loving who’s close at hand, serving who’s near by. Doing ALL in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Because, nothing for God is ever wasted.