In November I decided to focus my attention on confidence. Confidence in who God says He is and what it means for me to daily come with confidence before the throne of grace.
I really wanted to grasp what God was trying to teach us in this season of trials and to grow in the areas where we need it most so possibly the high stress will stop.
So much of what I’m learning has been regarding my attitude… as usual. Trial or no trial contentment is what I’m supposed to have. Peace that God is in control and confidence that He sees, He hears and He knows and is working on our behalf. It’s always the same lesson for me, learned over and over through new and various circumstances. Each round of tests seems a little tougher. God is one persistent trainer.
Parental decline, husband’s Illness and surgery, financial loss, and now outpatient rehab for our son. Is God cruel to try us so? No. I firmly believe that this is all for our good…or it can be if we allow Him access to our hearts. I am learning on a yet a deeper level that He DOES love me and that I CAN trust Him. Really? What again? Broken record.
I wish I could pass on my confidence in God’s plan. Even if its just my own kids, but this is a belief you experience. Deep faith must be owned. I suppose we have to walk through the valley yourself. You have to be holding on by a thread and choose to reach out for His unfailing love, grasping the promises He provides.
For January I want a deeper look into unfailing Love. I want to search out what that truly is; then recognize it everyday. Then I want to be so full of it that it oozes out of me and onto others.
Lord, I thank you for the trials You’ve sent us; hard as they have been. Thank You for proving Yourself to me in yet another way. You never cease to amaze. A tailor-made life… what more could we ask for? Use it all ForGlorySake! -Anna